6 months postpartum

I continued with my meds and counseling. I worked real hard to get to the bottom of my issues with my mother. Each counseling appointment brought me one step closer to really feeling like myself. I was really starting to feel good. I hadn’t felt this happy in a long time. I make it through [...]

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The journey from hospital to home

I woke up Saturday morning with a new desire to get better. There weren’t going to be many group sessions since it was the weekend. I was going to have to do some work myself. In between groups, I read the book “Letting go of Shame.” I take notes. I journal on how I can [...]

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When did it go bad?

I struggled through the next five weeks. I never recall feeling happy. I cried and cried. I would send the kids off for a break. Austin (son) would go to grandparents for the afternoon so I could sleep while Amaya did. I even let Austin go on a week long trip with my dad. I just [...]

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Baby number two

My husband and I decided just before our son turned two we would try for another child. So off the birth control we go. A year later still no baby. Time to throw in the towel. And wouldn’t you know it, we were pregnant that same month. I didn’t realize I was pregnant at first. I [...]

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Hello world!

I never thought I would actually want my own blog. But I have been reading some and decided I wanted share my journey through postpartum depression (PPD). I want other moms to know that they are not alone in their struggles. That is what helped get me through; knowing there were other moms who understood. [...]

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